Monday, October 25, 2010

It's a love thing...

25th October 2010

I'm having trouble sleeping! I hate this bit.  Why is it I can lay down in the middle of the day & be asleep in 2.3 seconds flat & yet at night its toss, turn, get up & pee, toss, turn, get up & pee!
The muscles in my neck are tight & aching...I need a massage!
I woke up this morning feeling like a train wreck.  It's kind of like I can see my family buzzing around getting ready for their Monday of work & school, but I just can't participate.
I stumbled out of bed...eyes hazy. I asked Mark if he could do the school run....of course the answer was yes.  I went back to bed until 9:30am.  The Ninj (AKA Julian) had a bottle for Mark then rolled over & went back to sleep....unreal!!!
You are so lucky someone commented to me today... I replied with...It's a love thing. 
Feels good to be loved & cared for...I might just make it through the next 30 weeks yet!  LOL

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Who turned on the lights....

24th October 2010

Note to self:
SELF, DO NOT STAY UP LATE LIKE A CRAZY PERSON BECAUSE WHEN YOU WANT TO SLEEP, THE NINJ (aka Jules) AND THE BODY WILL NOT ALLOW IT!!!!

Cough cough cough cough cough  waaaaaaaaa....  Cough cough cough cough cough waaaaaaaaa.....
Poor little man!

I woke up this morning after struggling to get any sleep at all. The light coming into my room felt like someone was shining a torch in my eyes.
It's quite warm today. Mark has gone off to work AGAIN!  I'm so looking forward to when he can take some weekends off.
Few things to do to get ready for the week ahead....& I just don't have the energy!
Fabulous!

Waking up to week nine...

24th October 2010

It's 12:38am. I should be in bed.  Thank God tomorow is Sunday (or should I say today).
Nine weeks.  Given the baby is coming out the sun roof, should only mean another 30 weeks.
Is it wrong to be on the countdown already??? LOL
Been feeling a bit off this week.  Nothing major. But mix it with a bit of lightheadness & I want to curl up into a ball.
The joys...

Vent...

21st October 2010

What is it with people assuming we are desperate for a girl?  Seriously...I just don't get it!
I know I should shake it off. Clearly other people think they are saying something nice when they wish & wish & wish us to have a pink one.
Mark & I are not believers in 'every man should have a son or every woman should have a daughter' business.  I just don't understand all that.

Crapola...I think my hormones are going to have a louder voice than I do!
If you don't have thick skin...perhaps you shouldn't read my blog! HA HA!

Vent over....

Week eight...

17th October 2010

I'm 8 weeks today and I put it out there the best way I knew how. Facebook!!!!  The world (the world I care about) now knows.
Lots of congrats from everyone which was lovely.  Oh MIL (mother in law) doesn't know...leaving that up to Mark.

Still pretty tired, even when I've had more than enough sleep. Ho-Hum...can't last forever.

I think perhaps my sugars are messing around. Been feeling...weird.  It's the kind of weird I feel when GD (gestational diabetes) is reeking havok with my body. Yuk!

2.5 weeks till OB appointment......c'moooooooooon!

Spilling the beans...

9th October 2010

This keeping a secret is the pits! So today I told one of my besties. Was an awesome reaction, got a big kiss & a hug! She was sooooo excited. Loved it!  So glad I decided to share it with her....made me feel like a million bucks!

I've had a really sore lower back & legs.  Don't enjoy this bit much. I'm tired too, but perhaps not as tired as I thought I'd be.  Famous last words???

Almost four weeks until my first OB appointment. Drag drag drag...

Not all smiles...

13th October 2010

It's time to tell Jake & Riley.  I can't stand it.
Jake sat there & took it in his stride as we knew Jake would.  It's his style...its just him!
Riley, on the other hand...

"Oh Crap!!!...You're joking! It better NOT be a girl!!!"

Something unexpected, something new, something we knew he would have trouble accepting.

Later that night we had tears.  Then the questions came....

Will it be in the same hospital? Will it be the same doctor? Will it be the same nurses? Will you have to take your blood out & put needles in your belly? Will I be staying at Grandma's the night before the baby is born? Will Grandma be driving us to the hospital? Will Aunty Leah be in the car too? Will your legs not move for a whole day? etc etc etc

He doesn't react like a 'traditional' child.  These are the times where we are reminded of that. 
I poured love & understanding all over him tonight.  I answered his questions as best I could.  He went to sleep feeling calm after giving me big cuddles.  How I love this boy of mine.

Getting on with it...

3rd October 2010

I'm 6 weeks pregnant today. I'm feeling pretty good, bit tired, but nothing earlier nights wont fix.
Back into the school term tomorrow, lets see how tired I get now!
Lissa-Lou is up from Sydney.  She's trying for a baby too.  I'm apprehensive about telling her, but I want to do it person, not on the phone or across cyber space when she's back in Sydney.
Told my sisters (Leah already 'knew' - she's a freak) & Mum all together. 
Shock...screams...smiles...congratulations...details, details, details...  I do love my sisterhood!

How awful to have to ask them to keep it on the down low. Jake & Riley haven't been told yet, although I believe Jake has his suspicions.

No denying...

28th September 2010

I waited 5 days (nearly killed me). 
I bought 'another' test.  THIS time...there's a dark second line.  There's no denying this one husband of mine!  I must admit...I did enjoy his big cheesy (I am king shit) smile.

This is baby number four. FOUR!! Me...who was only ever going to have my one little blonde haired blue eyed baby boy, am now having number four.  I must be nuts!!!

Speaking of my blonde haired blue eyed beauty...this baby is due on his 15th birthday!

I rang my OB today. Booked into the 3rd of November for my first visit.
Seems so far away....

Saturday, October 23, 2010

OMG!

23rd September 2010

Bought another test.  Thought I'd try a different brand (like thats going to make a difference).
Pee'd on the stick. Went out to finish cooking dinner. Lasted about a minute before I went back to the bathroom.

Oh My God!  There's a second line.  Its only just there...but it's there.  Holy cow!
I took the stick out & showed it to Mark. He looked at it. Held it under one light, then held it under another, then looked at it from about seven different angles & said...."are you sure there's a second line?"

Now I have doubts....

tick tock...

22nd September 2010

CD 33. Still no period. 

Maybe baby?

21st September 2010

I know what's happening.  Sometimes you just 'know'....you know?
I am on CD (cycle day) 31.  No period.
Me being me...I pee'd on a stick.....one line...negative! Breathe.....
My lower back is sore. I have a headache.
I still have a 'feeling'....